A Viewpoint from a Visit – Author Nolan P. Holloway, Jr.

 

Came to visit for the holiday

Festive family feasting fun

But it is bittersweet

Mom is slowly succumbing to Alzheimer’s

She calls me names, but not in an insulting way

One topic digresses into another

I stay silent to follow

So difficult for me to follow where, she doesn’t know where thoughts came from or where there are going

This is now of the woman who birthed me

Hard to see her in this

Cancer has bent her body so now a cane is needed for movement

Skin wrinkled from loss of weight and nails darkened from chemo

As the words flow, so do the tears

Her past is present and the today is confused

She rolls her hair daily because this gives her comfort

God is my father and he blesses me

I have never questioned him about what is happening to her

Spending time with her is lovely

In some moments when there is laughter between us, I see her as she was

Then the realness comes back when she gets dressed in the middle of the night and mistakes the time because the clock is in her mind

Not in the time zones that we know

But in the diseased thoughts being destroyed

along with precious memories

Cannot reset because she doesn’t know how

Just a gentle prodding from my sister to fix the hands to the correct hour

This is the now of the women who birthed me

Thankful that we can still love and be with each other

But melancholy that some of her has been lost

Bitter sweetness, not bitterness

I can still be with her but missing her too

I love you, Carrie

 

© Nolan P. Holloway Jr.

Life Between the Words

Excerpt from the book “Life Between The Words”

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About the Author

Nolan has been writing poetry for about six years now and it was something very unexpected. The first wave resulting in over 100 scribes which he shared with online groups, family and friends.  He has also attended spoken word events to recite his work in front of a live audience. Nolan is an accomplished writer who is truly enjoying his written journey.

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