Journal Entry: May, 1981
They know. My mom and dad know where the bruises have come from now. I couldn’t hide this one. He hit me in the face.
Sometimes… Well, no. He’s been mean to me for a long time and I kept believing him every time he said he was sorry. And he’d be mean again. And I’d go back again.
I don’t understand what’s wrong with me. But when he hit me, I saw stars and I almost passed out, but I didn’t. I had to stay conscious. And when he walked into the bathroom like nothing happened I knew that if I stayed around I could die. I could see the future.
I ran out the back door and kept going. Alleys. I ran down alleys the opposite way that he would go to find me. My head hurts so bad.
© Sandra Lyon Kramer
Excerpt from the book The Only Words my Soul Knows
About the Author
Sandra Lyon Kramer is a poet, artist, and political blogger. Her first published work was an essay that appeared in the “My Turn” column of the Los Angeles Daily News in June of 1992. The following year she won The National Author’s Registry President’s Award for Literary Excellence for “Starless” and was recognized by the International Society of Poets as a Poet of Merit.
Sandra is the former owner of two free-press publications, The Anti-Press and the Reality Press, and was a contributor to the Daily News, the Daily Journal, and Antelope Valley Focus Magazine. She now operates Tiny House Productions in the Los Angeles area and is a frequent participant in open mic events at Tia Chucha’s Centro Cultural in Sylmar, California.
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