She had left him; after too many promises,
too many chances given. The continuous
loops became monotonous. Pressing the delete
button with finality, leaving him empty hangers.
He knew the score, but feigned self-righteous
indignation. Gambled away his wedding ring,
gambled away his pay cheques, gambled away
his marriage. It left him bereft of tears.
At first, she would sit and stare at the clock, in
wait; chain smoking, legs crossed, incessant foot
tapping. She would swipe at her tears, the bitter
tears, ultimate rejection; he chose Craps over her.
Guilt settled upon him driving home. Penniless,
mortgage unpaid, nothing but empty pockets;
giving all he had to his mistress, “Lady Luck.”
Subterfuge became difficult; he slept in the car.
It was Friday. Payday. Dutifully, she went to the
bank after work, purse full of bills. Jaw slackened
in disbelief. Bank balance of $30., her pay cheque
was gone. She spent it on a bottle of vodka.
He won at the tables that night. Walking through
the door, excited as a child. “Payola Baby! Put
on your best dress, we’re going out to celebrate.”
She donned her little black dress for him.
Routine. Went to work, self medicated, numbing
herself of sentiment, drinking herself into unconscious
sleep. Walking by the kitchen table where bills now
piled, unopened; she felt the resignation of it.
Walking through the door, he knew. Deafening
silence met him, like a punch in the face. He knew,
even before he walked from room to room.
The day she warned him of, had arrived.
She left her wedding rings on the kitchen table, on
top of the unopened bills. She cashed out an
insurance policy, rented a car, driving, driving,
driving; to the only other place she had called home.
Strange relief flooded him. He was in love with
his mistress, loved the nervous excitement she
gave him. He boarded the plane, a pay cheque
and a one way ticket to Vegas in his pocket.
She poured herself a drink.
“Luck be a lady tonight.”
© Brenda-Lee Ranta
Excerpt from the book Allegories
About the Author
Brenda-Lee Ranta resides in Timmins, Ontario, Canada. She shares her journey with her life partner who is a drummer, lyricist and emerging poet. She is the mother of three children, two step-children and three grand-children. She prefers to be less ambiguous in her writing and more direct, while maintaining a lyrical flow in her verse. She holds strong political views, believing in equanimity for all humankind. These views also find their way into her choice of subject matter when writing. She is very sensitive to the emotions and plight of those around her. A writer for over 51 years of her life, she was first included as a contributor to an Anthology, titled, “Imperfect Paths,” published by Creative Talents Unleashed Publishing Group. She had a lifelong dream full-filled when her first book ”Myriad of Perceptions” was published by CTU Publishing Group in November of 2016. It attained a five star rating from ‘Readers Favorite,’ which was quite humbling, being her first book. “Allegories – A Thirst for Connection” is her second book of prose and poetry. She is very honoured to share these new writings with her readers.
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